Wednesday, April 20, 2022

Dinner Party

 

“I can’t see ‘em fallin’ down my eyes,

so I gotta make the song cry.” -Jay-Z


Carrot Cake on the table.

Carrot Cake fawned over by guests.

Carrot Cake sliced, with reverence and dexterity, in preparation for sharing.


Carrot Cake screaming

In horror.

It does not know what it is supposed to be.

Carrot Cake wonders, amid the searing agony of knife fall,

Am I a health food?

What monster sat in their kitchen dungeon,

Fusing vegetable with cake?

Screams pitch and swell in the dining room. Screams the revelers are too distracted to notice.


Why am I here?

Was I forged just to leave the world wailing against the gnashing of teeth?

Why do they smile, mid-bite, as my soul slips away?


Carrot Cake is distributed.

Carrot Cake is savored.

Carrot Cake is dead and gone.


The revelers leave. “Dessert was delish!”

The room falls silent. The trash bags come swirling out. Obstructing light. Laughing with a hidden purpose finally revealed.


Now, the paper dishes, cast off, crumpled, and forgotten, realize that their sly winks to one another,

This fool, Carrot Cake. 

A coward until the end!

They, laughing with a gentle scorn,

Will not be saved either.

Tuesday, April 19, 2022

Commands

Look here.

I’m over your nonsense and I’m going to probably have to hit you in the face when you don’t listen to me telling you otherwise.

Listen.

It’s nothing personal, but you need to shut up, yesterday. I don’t want to hit you in the face, but we’ve got rules around here. I’m not going to be the one to start going against time-honored tradition.

Hold up.

Please stop crying. We both can’t be crying and I’m not allowed to stop. You’ve got to be the bigger person here. I’m not allowed to tell you again.

Leave.

And get me a tissue box. Then, stop doing what you’re doing forever. Trust me. I know how things go here. You will too eventually.



Delayed Again: Survey Says


I.

We’ll say that today is looking good. Delightful bursts of sunshine interspersed with casual rain showers. Highs around 73 and minimal humidity. Heaven will likely fall from the sky.


II.


I’ll need to show them some paperwork to prove I am who I say I am. Routine, I’m told. It really shouldn’t be this hard to get a body anymore.


III.


Come on, like you really want to know? I’m probably going to see what everyone else does and go from there. 


IV.


I’ll give you 3 fish and a candle. Go to the woods and shout your dead Great Uncle’s name. That should cover your needs.


V.


I really want to know about you. Well, not really, but let’s say I do. Yeah 

Monday, April 18, 2022

Delayed: Best Friends

 Didn’t get to this one yesterday, so here’s NaPoWriMo Day 17 on Day 18.

I will be too much for you and the others to handle to handle.


I will scream “Cake!”

I will wear a cape with the number 88.

Profanities will be shouted after my name.


I will be the best investment your family has made.


I will roost

I will be scared of small objects

I will be the anointed caregiver.


You will cry at sad movies in my memory.


I will bark at all intruders.

I will outsmart all humans

I will shake uncontrollably.

I will hate the gun shots and the fireworks and the sounds of rural living.


You will learn I’m gone, on a bus around strangers, via a phone call with your mother. You will break into a sense of cosmic grief. Your friend will come and sit next to you and rub your shoulder. The woman next to you will give you a dirty look. At least that’s how you remember it.


We will all

come and go

So quickly.

Saturday, April 16, 2022

Cut rate Sonnets

Today’s prompt was a curtal sonnet-11 lines with the the last line being shorter.


I won’t pretend to ascertain the truth.

I believe in the words of my father.

To work everyday, to not be a bother.

To own my misdeeds and the times I’m uncouth.


Revisions of facts for a greater purpose.

All insistence aside, remain observant

For defections, despite words that are fervent.

We all set aside what is right, all in service.


To a higher power, but we don’t know it’s name.

The power unbidden, too bold to be tame.

Say it in jest, the meaning’s the same.

Friday, April 15, 2022

Golf Clap

There are two types of people:

People who golf and people who don’t.

I am the latter.


People tell me I’d love it.

People are lying to me and themselves.


A hole 300+ yards away.

A metal stick in open fields.

Copious sunshine?

Fine-motor skills?

Multiple hours?

Bird names?



This is a recipe for the “world’s most impressive tantrum.” 

Flipping golf carts

Bending metal into enthusiastic animal shapes.

Clouds of expletives hovering like a mushroom cloud,

Scattering vulgar damage.


I am not precise.

I do not like collared shirts.

I like shade.

I like my adversity not on full display, a spectacle for others around me.

I don’t like pretending to be interested in what other people do.


When I meet my maker

I will ask them:

“Why did you make golf?”


They will reply:

“To show the world that many would prefer Hell to Heaven.”


They will be right.

Thursday, April 14, 2022

Scene 1

Shot 1:

It starts with a close up of grass.

Its early, the sun hasn’t come up yet

Track shot moves up in slow walk. With purpose, emphatic. Without haste.


Observe the glistening dew on each blade.

Watch it weigh down the blades of grass,

Force them to lean and bend.

Notice the disarray. All blades pointing in directions of the dew’s choosing.


The grass abruptly ends.

Shot stops moving.

A pockmarked pavement.

The potholes of a longer winter

Not yet sewn up by the town.

Jagged like teeth

In a malformed palette.

Cracked,

Split in the little fissures from ice

and salt

and the scrape of winter’s grip.

It’s quiet.


Shot 2:

Broad shot.

Long, gravel driveway to a farmhouse, as sun sets. An old, prominent tree off to the right third of the shot. Radiant in the fading sunlight.


The house:

Beige Paint peeling. Window on the first floor, right side of the home, with wide gash in its pane.

Clapboard siding sagging on the opposite side in a dysfunctional patterning.


Camera begins to zoom.


The sound of the old porch’s settled wood creaking. An evening breeze only noticeable because the sun’s influence has cooled.

The sound of water dripping somewhere off of a worn gutter.


As the camera zooms to the front door. Slightly off of its hinges, an unfinished, cheap wood. The creaking sounds become more frequent, the wind’s squeals more pronounced.

The creaks become the sound of sharp cracking.

Water drops are louder now.

Building in percussive power.

The sound of small animals rustling off camera.

Louder now.

The camera speeds up and reaches the door as a crack, longer and more pronounced, rings out.

Screen goes black.


Shot 3:

Black frame, the sound of squeaking bike pedaling begin to trickle in.

Light fades in. Mid-morning on a sunny day.

In the left third of shot: an older, prominent tree. Leaves brown in the colors of autumn.

Nothing moves on the tree.

The squeak of the bike tire rubbing the Frame of a bike.

The clicking of the spokes against a worn gear.


The tree does not move.

The leaves remain still.

The wind has gone away. Resting


Faintly, the sound of dull tapping.

The sound of gravel shifting.


The sound of the bike

The wail of the brakes meeting the wind’s return. Carrying the sharp, sudden hiss of travel interrupted. 

Envelops the still action of the shot.

A cracking of wood. Once, twice, now in uncountable procession,

Descending into the sound of wood snapping and collapsing in. Creaking away from the confines of nails and wood glue. A structure rendering itself as rubble. A return to modest origins.


The screen goes black. The wind’s shrieking is heard and a slow fade in of footfall on gravel is heard before silence.

Wednesday, April 13, 2022

Miracles of Gardening

I have no ill will towards

anyone,

anymore.


I have buried it in my front yard

next a Japanese Maple.

I placed it in an ornate box with

a metal clasp.

My ill will

will ooze out of the boxes sharpened 

corners.

It will meet soil.

Feel the truth of the universe

Note its sustaining nutrients,

Its nourishment. 

an opportunity for growth.


It will grow and bloom-become a daisy,

maybe many of them.

It will drink the Spring Rains.

It will be a joy to the eyes of each passerby.

A vision of peace.


I will no longer dwell

next to the tree, near the dirt mound,

feeding the ground with my tears

and my trepidations.

It is time for me to notice the maple’s pink

leaves and how they reach out around them.

How they call to us.

How they let me know that I too

am planting something of myself

in this place. I am becoming a piece of

It.

Joining the procession

In a joyous hymn

And using percussive accessories.


Becoming the spectacle 

We all deserve to witness.

Tuesday, April 12, 2022

Coda with Vibrato

 I know this glance of yours.

Without a word

We are in the dangerous rhythm.


It brings

An invitation

To explore

The same thought

We know the other one is having.


No one is going to be happy

When one of us or the other

Loses their edge,

Explodes in a fit of nervous, uncontainable

Laughter. Sweating with the effort to stop.

Face flushed with effort

Willpower overcome but still revving the faulty engine.


Silence will be cremated.

All of the collective focus of this room

Will go the way of the dodo.

We will both be held to account

In the eyes of those whose moments are stolen from them.

There can be no sympathy,

There will be no quarter.

Just the shock of fits and starts

Failing to control themselves.

And a new communal rage seeks to devour us.


Please, look away.

Monday, April 11, 2022

Breakdown (Now in Drop D)

Earth is throttled

Torn,

Ripped and screaming fire.

Clouds drop from the weight of it all.

The Impact is a sound of crumbled foil shattering a windshield.


Our words,

No longer

Heard,

But long before

A fault line-turned-chasm grew between them.

Shifting with the undulations of another world. A dying star flailing without dignity somewhere above the crust of the earth.


Earth rises and falls

With unyielding speed.

Here the dirt and soil and rocky past grows in melody, a choir of voices building, approaching the space between us.

Something grinds and roils beneath the otherwise

Pleasant, rolling hills.

Watch it on its set path

To disrupt the dying gasps of day

With its teeth

And the shriek

Of a primal history

Momentarily misplaced 

but returned by the

Ground below.


My, how we will remember

What we thought we understood

Between us!

It is tangled in deep, winding roots of ancient trees,

Now Cracked loose and splintering in its journey,

Unwound, and 

Rupturing up from the firmament

High into the shattering sky,

Arcing away.


Watch its bend,

a moment of inflection 

and the splendor of stillness, brief,

a set piece at equilibrium.

Watch it resume

Time catching it

Then quickening its free fall, spilling out to blot out the remaining light and to remake the places

We are unlikely

To ever find again.

Sunday, April 10, 2022

Love in the time of Hamilton

I tried to make you an elaborate musical number.

Full on dance-battles.

Madrigals meeting breakbeats.

Set changes at the key change.

I was going to show you love through the power of spectacle.

You would know the depth of my feelings.

The actors wanted these things called directions.

The musicians wanted sheet music.

Set designers needed paint.

I probably should have booked a venue.

Needless to say, it was more complicated than I was thinking.

I also cannot sing or dance or paint.

All I had was a feeling.

All I have is this feeling.

Held deeply, resolute in my spleen and other organs in that region.

So I’ll share it with you,

At the table tonight with the dinner you’ve made us, in the home we share, in a life we are building

And hope that it is enough.

Saturday, April 9, 2022

Nonets are good Nets

Egg is a birth and egg is a food.

Crack in the pan, permanent choice.

From a choice already made

By someone far away.

With a firm grip on

Resolution.

Go ahead:

Start your 

Feast.

Friday, April 8, 2022

Omni-Ego



My image

Through a glass 

Distorted in a trick of an eye.


Somewhere in the glass.

A faraway place

Unmade on a map.

Unknown in the words of others.


A copy of the copy staring back at the original.

Looking to speak.

What will I tell me?


Wisdom, lean forward.

Whisper gently to my forehead.

Words in the flow of the River

Caught in the rising of the moment.

Traveling beneath the ground

Weaving through eroding limestone.

Feel their ebb and flow

In the finery of words.

In the cadence of the spoken.

In the truth of the soul.


I’ll project an image

Onto this hanging sheet.

It will show the same clip

Forward, backward, unstitched in sequencing.

The audience will evaluate

It.

Give it shape and a role.


New possibilities will join the timeline.

What this is was forgotten

What this was is knowable.

Glass, shift the image when taken and 

Repositioned.


Another new life has begun,

A process of refraction.

Reflection becoming a reality.

A slight differentiation

Another opportunity.


I am me and he is I and we are the same.

And I too, will receive this name

Given to me.

I will go

Will move through one of these new worlds

To seek our destiny.

Thursday, April 7, 2022

Proverbs and Regular Verbs

Better the devil you know than the devil you don’t.


Observe:

His meticulous use of pitchfork.

His sagacious methodology of flame.

His adroit frolicking from foot to foot, revelry in the authority of his wiles.


My rib cage has known his blows.

Grown intimate and familiar with his scourge movements.

The joy in meting out his edicts, his rewards, his punishments.

An unholy trinity.


I am familiar with these methods.

I know the hum of his torture,

The counter-harmonies of his manipulations,

The melody of the misery he causes me.

Sharp, perspective slaps.

I sing it as a funeral dirge each day. Echoing off the Canyons of Hell’s Mountain Ranges.


His is an artisan’s work.

Bespoken in mass-produced quantities.

Precious in its value, not in its availability.

And, Business is booming.


You might console me.

Say, The pitchfork to the knee

Is an impersonal thing.

You might try to say: This devil, flourishes aside,

Is one that has invited you

To break bread

And bones.

To build 

Community

Then dismantle it.

Who knows what evil lurks in the heart of another?

What new strings will be pulled to create a new song to scream to no one, but all will here?


You suggest:

He is a known quantity in the eternal misery of this place.


I advise you

To come on down here,

And experience it with your own skin.

Be flayed, listen to more nu-metal, get the whole package.

You might find yourself wondering:

Does the devil make a damn bit a difference?


Im not a gambling man anymore, but I think you too will be,

Just like the rest of us,

A fiend,

Clamoring For a new devil’s whims.

After all, we’ve got all the time in the world

And I think we all deserve a change around here, anyway.

You will too.